someone like you

So I don't know if anyone reads my blog at all, but I havn't written here in a while, so I thought I would. Haha yes it's early in the morning, but I dont' go to bed til late. I nap in the day too, so that keeps me awake at night as well.
School here is great. I'm loving it. Hating the homework, but loving school. Especially being on my own, I love living on my own, but without all the responsibility of living on my own. Like I don't have to cook my own food or clean my own bathroom, and I don't have dishes to clean except my mug at times and maybe my plastic dish from time to time. But it's great, i really like it :)
School is super busy! Today I had a 14 hour day! I had class at 830am and didn't get back to my room til 1030pm. I came back for an hour to nap, but that was it! Haha so i'm super busy!!!
Theres always a lot to do. I was in the practice room for 5 hours today, singing and composing. And I watched some of Tosca with a friend for an hour and bit. It's a pretty intense opera I won't lie. It's really good.
I'm really excited to start actually getting better!! haha, i havn't gotten better yet, but i'm learning lots of new techniques and stuff, so hopefully i'll start getting the hang of them soon. My lesson was so super fursterating today, cause I just couldn't hit the high notes, at all, no matter what I did or tried. So thats all we did all lesson, and by the end of the lesson my teacher just said we aren't going to sing the song! GAH!! SO FRUSTERATING!!
Whatever.
So I can't believe it's already October :S Haha where did time go?
This weekend should be a gong show. Today i'm going to the road tour for qwanoes, it'll be good to see some camp people. Saturday night is a U signers party, I hope I can go, but i'll be home and its out here in vancouver..such a long way!! haha. Whcih means i'd skip church on sunday. But sunday I get to see carlann and lauren! :) pretty excited for that. And then maybe go out sunday night again. Haha, I love weekends. I'm bringing my guitar back as well!! So stoked! I'll nspend a bunch of time doing that, I miss sitting down to it and just playing and singing. I can't raelly do that in the music building cause it's weird to just sit and play songs and sing non-opera music. ha. oh well, the guitar is coming out so that will be good :)
I'm also bringing out christmas lights :) that's going to be fun. haha i love christmas lights.
well i don't have much else to say, but that i need to actually get to bed :S
I have class tomorrow! GAH
Stupid german...
anyway I am out :)
Niiiight world :)
God bless
lovelovelove
Courtney
oh ps, two is better than one

I'd like to my myself believe that planet earth turns slowly

So I am wide awake at 8am. This is stupid, I just wanted to sleep in for 1 day! But I guess it can be to my advantage when I start my classes...oh wait, thats TUESDAY!
I move in tomorrow, btw. No big, just...moving out. I'm so nervous and scared, I even questioned myself a few nights ago if it was really what I wanted to do and this was the right thing. I know it is, but im just so scared. What if I don't make friends? What if I don't fit in? Will I even have roommates? Will I like them? Will we get along? What if I hate UBC, and hate my classes, what if I fail? Too many what if's, not enough things im sure about. Well I am sure that I havn't done near enough packing. Today is going to be just a solid day of packing, cleaning, organizing and picking up anything that I might need that I have forgotten. Should be an interesing day, seeing as I have left almost all my packing until the day before I move. I dont' surprise myself though. I have some lists though that I made a while ago that can maybe help me. I have to apply for a job as well. Im really interested in getting a job with the althetic department and working games or working with the athletic department in general. I think it would be sweet! I don't really want a music job cause i'm going to be around music 24/7 essentially by studying opera, so i kinda want a job where I can get away from that.
I don't have terribly much to speak of. I went on a trip to francois lake this past weekend, from thursday to monday. I caught 6 fish, named em all. Edgar, Simon, Sully, Captain Sir, Thatchter and Morgan. I had one, and it tasted pretty darn good as well! It was great to see my aunt and uncle, I had lots of fun being up there. The boat was kinda cramped, but thats ok, at least we had a boat to be on and fish on.
Well I am going to attempt to start my day once I decide to actually step out of my bed. Maybe i'll try going back to sleep?....Probably not, but I can always try
lovelovelove
God bless
Courtney

Some hours to chill!!

So I am sitting here at home, relaxed, it's quite nice i must admit.
Though im not feeling so great. My chest cough is back, which sucks major. And I have a cold on top of it.
But I had the best road trip ever. It was amazing! Me and Alycia did scavenger hunt up to 150 mile house, which was pretty sweet, and we spent the night there at her parents house. Her family is sweet. They are crazy, i love it. I def. felt like part of the fam being there. It was lots of fun. We went and saw a cattleguard and went to a 'waterfall'. Haha well it's usually a raging waterfall, but was more like a trickle when we went, so we walked down it on the rocks that aren't normally showing. It was cool, then we did some crazy band pose, never done it, now I have! It was fun. And we played slap the deck, so incredibly stressful!!! I couldn't even handle it!!
The next morning we left pretty early to go to Michaels cabin, which was epic. Quite the gong show! We went water tubing when we got there, and Michael and Alycia had quite the wipe out as the tube flipped. Epic to say the least. And then the next day Alycia ditched to go back to camp early in the morning. Michael, his dad and myself went out on the boat and I got to try water skiing, and we went down the river twice in tubes. Oh, and i dominate at the game 3 13. Sweet game which I am excellent at. You can challenge me if you wish, but i'm pretty sure i'd win.
Then I picked up my great aunt in enderby and headed back home.
Saw Laura and Carlann yesertday. I havn't seen Carlann in like close to 3 months, so I was so excited to see her! And me and Laura watched Star Wars return on the Jedi. Heck yes we are nerds. Love it though. And we hit up dairy queen. It was grrrrreat.
So i pretty much just gave a play by play of my week/weekend. How lame am I? Clearly bored. I need to get stuff for university, and print pictures off, and start packing and blah blah blah. I am so scared to move to UBC. So stoked, but scared at the same time. I'm not the best at getting to know people to begin with so this is going to be a tough one, but fun none the less. I am excited.
I'm going fishing this weekend!! I leave thursday to go up to see my aunt and uncle in PG and then we are going fishing for 3 days on the boat...SO EXCITED!! I love fishing so much! And just chillin out on the boat is tons of fun. Did I mention I love fishing? It's gonna be great, I am stoked.
Love seeing my aunt and uncle too, they are tons of fun and I love them lots.
I'm sad i'm going to be missing Point Roberts :( I had such a gong show last year, and i'm going to miss it this year, but fishing is def. my priority, by far.
Man, today i just had one of those God moments. Out of nowhere, of how wonderful great and loving God is. It was a great feeling. I def. felt his embrace, he was showing me his love just in a simple way, i think it just came out of a song. It was so cool. God is so amazing. He's got it all covered, it's the best. Jereimiah 29:11 :)
I went to lunch today with my rents and then me and my mom went to metro. I got a backpack. Exciting right? It's pretty cool, I need one for school, so I'm glad I found one.
Well I am going to peace out. Have a good one.
lovelovelove
God Bless,
Courtney

Put the drumbeat back in my heart.

So back from camp, most amazing time ever. I'm going to miss it so much and all the people.
But I've learned so much from being there for summer, and i'm filled with a new fire, and I feel ready to go out into the world, use what i've learned and make a difference.
God really revived me at camp. He brought me back to life.
He's set a purpose in my life now, to be his child and just praise him in everything I do. I'm going to do my year at UBC, and after that, who knows. I really want to go to Briercrest and take worship there. Man, God really saved me from myself at camp.
To be quite honest, before camp I felt like I didn't really have much of a purpose in my life and that I was going nowhere. I feel that now, God has big plans for me. Jeremiah 29:11 is a perfect example of God telling us all he has planned.
I know that theres so much more out there for me, and this year I really want to grasp this new freedom God has placed in my soul, and I want to live for him in everything I do. I never want to loose this fire.
I sadly must say that I am going to be leaving the Grove :( But I feel that if I stay I won't grow spiritually. I will be back lots though and I still want to see everyone and go to the College and Career small group, but I can't loose this fire I have and this new found love for life. I lost it somewhere in the past and God gave it back to me.
I really would like to volunteer at the UGM or somewhere like that during the year as well. I really want to be a youth leader as well. Thats something I really really want to do. And I want to do worship somewhere. Hard as it is to leave, God is calling me and I could never ignore his call.
It feels so great to be home though. As much as I miss camp, I'm really enjoying being home. I don't think I've fully grasped the fact that i'm not going back yet haha. It will hit me though eventually which is scary. But the people that matter and care I will see again, which comforts me.
Well i'm am headed off to dinner so I will catch ya lata.
God Bless,
LOVELOVELOVE
Courtney
"I wanna wake up, I wanna restart, but the drumbeat back in my heart, I need to be revived, bring me back to life."

I love you Lord

Home at last. Bitter sweet I suppose. There is one part of me that is so excited to finally be home, and to take all I have learned and this fire I feel inside, and go out into the world. There are so many things I want out of life and I am so ready to go out and get them.
But there is also a part of me that has started to miss camp. I don't know if it has really hit me that im not going back. Probably not. I havn't really cried yet about it, i'm hoping i won't. I couldn't really handle the tears back at camp today. Though crying isn't a bad thing, i don't do well with goodbyes, tears don't help in any way.
But I know that the people that matter and that I care about and that care about me, I will see again, so theres a sense of peace about it as well. And God has a plan for everything, so I am trusting in him.
I got my necklace today. Actually last night. It's my camp necklace that says my name, which we were supposed to get at the beginning of camp, but just got now. And to my surprise, it reads "Courtrey". I am not sure who I should be blaming for this, but I do find it comical, but it is not my name. Oh well, i guess an R is close to an N? Not really.
This week was lots of fun and so was family camp.
Family camp gave me a lot of alone time, and time with God which was really sweet, but also some time to just hang out with people which was cool. But a lot of alone time, which i didn't really mind since I found out it's just what I needed.
But I was sick all of family camp pretty much with a chest infection that I think is going away. Or is pretty much gone actually.
But it was pretty chill, I had it really easy. I was supposed to be on maintnence, but many of the mornings I found myself sick and unable to get out of bed to do maintnence. But when I slept in I felt much better and went and did my activies. I was a belayer and I also did guitar instruction which was pretty cool.
Last week was a pretty cool week. I counseled with Jenna. That was a gong show and a half. We were a pretty stellar team, I must say.
I got to be on top of the plunger which is 90 feet in the air, for 2 hours!! Amazing to say the least! Though the view was mostly trees, I was so high up and felt so amazing up there. I got some good God time in too while I was up there, which was sweet. I read my bible and prayed a bunch, and took lots of random pictures too. I also dropped my iPod down to the ground. Somehow it survived and still works. Thank Jesus.
I also saw some meteors! That was amazingly cool. We were out on the dock, and the phsophoresents were sooo amazing, they were the brighest I have ever seen them. They were so incredibly glittery. And the moon was just hypnotyzing. It was like this mysterious shadowy ball off in the distance, and then i glowed a firey red but it seemed so close! It was really amazing. And then we saw like 5 meteors during the night. Just glittering light streaking across the sky leaving tails of smoke behind. One of the most amazing thigns I have ever seen, I admit.
The girls were awesome, though they wern't ready for the Jesus stuff, they were so much fun to be around.
Well I think i'm going to head off to bed and write some more post-camp blogs later.
I am also going to Seattle this week with Alycia and Amy :D I am so excited!! Like, you have no idea. haha
Well I need some sleep, I think im going to go to church tomorrow morning.
Oh church...I have some big decisions to make, one which I think I may be making tomorrow. Tomorrow may very well be one of my last services there.
Night
God bless
LOVELOVELOVE
Courtney

So family camp is over!

Which is pretty cool, cause im counsilling next week with Jenna! yay!

And i've also moved up to a co-counselor. 

sweet! anyway, so i went jelly fish fishing, got chased by a killer bunny cat, and picked blackberries and got a thorn stuck in my foot after going to the guest house.

Ya, anyway, i won't lie, I am really excited to go back home. 

Like i'm def. going to miss camp a lot, but at the same time, the loneliness def. takes a toll, and it's making me ready to go home.

I only have 1 week left of camp. Went by really fast.

Well I don't have much time, so I will write later.

Bye

God bless

Courtney

Amazing love how can it be?

Hola!!

Wow I have written anything here for a while. It's my birthday today :) hehe

I've had an amazing b-day though. We did big blue and wide eyed and liquified today, which are my FAVORITE events, and they were on my b-day which was pretty sweet :)

Well nothing really new to talk of. I have an autistic girl in my cabin this week, it's been pretty tough. She's 18 (the other girls are 13 and 14) and she has the mental capacity of a 5 year old. So thats been kinda tough and draining cause we have to tell her to do EVERYTHING, but she's a real sweetheart. 

There are some other difficult parts in the cabin but all in all it's lots of fun.

I started a no mirror or makeup day today. So I havn't looked in a mirror all day and I didn't put makeup on, so I have no idea how I look right now. But I think it's pretty sweet. Lots of other counsillors are doing it too and lots of kids, which is sweet.

It's blistering hot here. Like soooooo hot, I'm always sweating. Which reminds me, i'm so thirsty. I'm kinda sick too, which sucks, but oh well, God has got my back :)

A house burnt down last night, I woke up at 2 in the morning to a burning smell, and i didn't know what it was, turns out it was a house in crofton that burned down. 

Well I should get going. 2 weeks til I come home! I am excited but really sad at the same time. I love camp a lot. I'm going to miss it a lot too and all the amazing people. But lets not think of that. haha

anyway ciao!

God Bless,

LOVELOVELOVE

Courtney