I love you Lord

Home at last. Bitter sweet I suppose. There is one part of me that is so excited to finally be home, and to take all I have learned and this fire I feel inside, and go out into the world. There are so many things I want out of life and I am so ready to go out and get them.
But there is also a part of me that has started to miss camp. I don't know if it has really hit me that im not going back. Probably not. I havn't really cried yet about it, i'm hoping i won't. I couldn't really handle the tears back at camp today. Though crying isn't a bad thing, i don't do well with goodbyes, tears don't help in any way.
But I know that the people that matter and that I care about and that care about me, I will see again, so theres a sense of peace about it as well. And God has a plan for everything, so I am trusting in him.
I got my necklace today. Actually last night. It's my camp necklace that says my name, which we were supposed to get at the beginning of camp, but just got now. And to my surprise, it reads "Courtrey". I am not sure who I should be blaming for this, but I do find it comical, but it is not my name. Oh well, i guess an R is close to an N? Not really.
This week was lots of fun and so was family camp.
Family camp gave me a lot of alone time, and time with God which was really sweet, but also some time to just hang out with people which was cool. But a lot of alone time, which i didn't really mind since I found out it's just what I needed.
But I was sick all of family camp pretty much with a chest infection that I think is going away. Or is pretty much gone actually.
But it was pretty chill, I had it really easy. I was supposed to be on maintnence, but many of the mornings I found myself sick and unable to get out of bed to do maintnence. But when I slept in I felt much better and went and did my activies. I was a belayer and I also did guitar instruction which was pretty cool.
Last week was a pretty cool week. I counseled with Jenna. That was a gong show and a half. We were a pretty stellar team, I must say.
I got to be on top of the plunger which is 90 feet in the air, for 2 hours!! Amazing to say the least! Though the view was mostly trees, I was so high up and felt so amazing up there. I got some good God time in too while I was up there, which was sweet. I read my bible and prayed a bunch, and took lots of random pictures too. I also dropped my iPod down to the ground. Somehow it survived and still works. Thank Jesus.
I also saw some meteors! That was amazingly cool. We were out on the dock, and the phsophoresents were sooo amazing, they were the brighest I have ever seen them. They were so incredibly glittery. And the moon was just hypnotyzing. It was like this mysterious shadowy ball off in the distance, and then i glowed a firey red but it seemed so close! It was really amazing. And then we saw like 5 meteors during the night. Just glittering light streaking across the sky leaving tails of smoke behind. One of the most amazing thigns I have ever seen, I admit.
The girls were awesome, though they wern't ready for the Jesus stuff, they were so much fun to be around.
Well I think i'm going to head off to bed and write some more post-camp blogs later.
I am also going to Seattle this week with Alycia and Amy :D I am so excited!! Like, you have no idea. haha
Well I need some sleep, I think im going to go to church tomorrow morning.
Oh church...I have some big decisions to make, one which I think I may be making tomorrow. Tomorrow may very well be one of my last services there.
Night
God bless
LOVELOVELOVE
Courtney